Saturday, August 11, 2012
Ah. Spent a refreshing 2 hours on the piano worshipping and practicing.
I really really feel that my call in life is to play the piano and worship God.
Today's song which spoke to me was this old one "Oh I want to know you more". I vividly remember Yvette singing this song when she was worship leading one of the old worship experience. I remember that all the main worship leaders were away, and she was stressed to the point of tears. But her voice and her heart broke through with this song.
Today's song which spoke to me was this old one "Oh I want to know you more". I vividly remember Yvette singing this song when she was worship leading one of the old worship experience. I remember that all the main worship leaders were away, and she was stressed to the point of tears. But her voice and her heart broke through with this song.
Just the time
I feel
That I've
been caught in mire of self
Just the time
I feel
My mind's
been bought by worldly wealth
That's when
the breeze be-gins to blow
I know the
Spirit's call
And all my
worldly wanderings
Just
melt in-to His love
Oh, I want to know You more
Deep within my soul I
want to know You
Oh I want to know You
* To
feel Your heart and know Your mind
Looking in Your eyes
stirs up with - in me
Cries that say I want to
know You
Oh I want to know You
more
When my daily
deeds ordinarily
Lose life and
song
My heart
begins to bleed
Sensitivity
to Him is gone
I've run the
race, upset my pace
And face a
shattered soul
Now the
gentle arms of Jesus
Warm my
hunger to be whole
* And I would
give my final breath
To know You
in Your death and resurrection
Oh I want to
know You more
Oh I want to
know You more
And as I sang this song, I just felt God healing the weariness in my heart. It was a quite a reflective time in service today. A youth came to talk with me about his stagnancy in ministry, not because he's lazy or too busy, but simply that he was trying hard, but not able to move anywhere in his relationship with God. I really felt that many times, I am in that place. However, due to my responsibilities, I bite the bullet and just try to persevere.
Many times when I'm tired, God ministers to me through such songs. The lyrics "I would give my final breath to know You in Your death and resurrection" blows me away. It speaks of non-stop perseverance and God drawing one into His presence endlessly. I can sing this; but I want to be able to mean every word of this song.
Which brings me back to my thoughts on worship. Yes I know my call is to serve God in this area, all my life. Where in ministry, when in ministry, I am unsure. Right now I am very comfortable in the youth ministry, being at a place to serve and to band-direct. But I also know that while I am enjoying myself, I am to move on in my life. Hesitant because an older worship ministry would bring a new environment and new challenge which I am not sure I would be able to handle. Not sure what sort of position/posture I would take in a band - submissive, dominant, supportive? I'm past the days where I used to be a quiet and submissive party in the band, only listening and doing what I ought to do.
Oh well, it's a decision I'll have to make soon. But for now, I'll quickly train up more youths and leaders to be able to carry on the passion for serving.
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