Saturday, August 09, 2008
1/4 post for now. Too tired to think so I'll just write some and finish it up later on tonight.
The preaching just now should have gotten to me. I don't know why, but somehow it just flew past. More and more things are flying past me. Somehow it seems that my mind is choosing to ignore a lot of things, and only let a small amount into my head. Like some sort of selective filter, only let the good stuff in. Or in my case, only let what's really pressing in.
For some reason, I'm feeling extremely numb. Judging from the things that are going on around me now, I should be extremely upset. But I'm not. It's just a sense of emptiness in place of all the tears. Perhaps that is good.
Jon Lin was scary, he jokingly(? He doesn't know whether he was joking or serious in the end) commented on my state of heart due to some horsing around, it was so scaringly spot on I was wondering if it was just a coincidence or prophetic. He doesn't know that of course, I don't let people in that much. But it really made me aware of what I really am. He's a scary guy. And I'm gonna miss him when he flies off (not to mention his D60 and reeeeally pretty shots). On the same page, I thank God for people like Mikey. Who are unchanging, who are there to listen when I have anything to complain about. It's good that he's far away. Makes it easier to talk because he won't have much idea about what I'm saying.
Oh well. Thank God for mature friends whom I can crap with.
K, will finish up this post later after dinner.
The preaching just now should have gotten to me. I don't know why, but somehow it just flew past. More and more things are flying past me. Somehow it seems that my mind is choosing to ignore a lot of things, and only let a small amount into my head. Like some sort of selective filter, only let the good stuff in. Or in my case, only let what's really pressing in.
For some reason, I'm feeling extremely numb. Judging from the things that are going on around me now, I should be extremely upset. But I'm not. It's just a sense of emptiness in place of all the tears. Perhaps that is good.
Jon Lin was scary, he jokingly(? He doesn't know whether he was joking or serious in the end) commented on my state of heart due to some horsing around, it was so scaringly spot on I was wondering if it was just a coincidence or prophetic. He doesn't know that of course, I don't let people in that much. But it really made me aware of what I really am. He's a scary guy. And I'm gonna miss him when he flies off (not to mention his D60 and reeeeally pretty shots). On the same page, I thank God for people like Mikey. Who are unchanging, who are there to listen when I have anything to complain about. It's good that he's far away. Makes it easier to talk because he won't have much idea about what I'm saying.
Oh well. Thank God for mature friends whom I can crap with.
K, will finish up this post later after dinner.
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