Wednesday, March 05, 2008
My beloved dear 800 is no more. I lent it out and it came back broken. Ah well. Rest in peace dear 800. I'll really miss having you to fill my time.On other notes: I need sleep! Desperately. I have a 5 page report due tomorrow. I'm at 4 pages, have been at 4 pages for the past 8 hours and I don't know what else to write about. I have tutorials to catch up on, I have work to revise because I didn't have the time/energy to pay attention in class. Had sets of mid-terms already. I fully expected not to do well but I didn't expect to flunk the one I spent the most time on. Sheesh.
Today I had 2 papers. Bad is an understatement. I really hope to pass and at least get a decent grade so I won't have too much to make up for come finals.
I don't know what's wrong with me. Recently I'm starting to feel really dumb. Why? Because of the choices I make. I can tell myself what is the most logical way out, yet in the spur of the moment I'd do otherwise. I know what's going on.
What I predicted is coming to pass. Worse than I expected it to be actually. But then again, while all this is happening, I have absolutely no idea why I'm still deluding myself. It's like, living in my own world of fantasy, the heart believing in something good and refusing to see the atrocity that the brain is clearly seeing.
Then again. So long as things carry on this way, the heart should be able to finally realise what's going on. For now, I'll try very hard to forget myself in my studies again. I've neglected studying far too much, which explains why I'm going through this torture. GO back and lose myself studying and not only while I be able to improve my grades, I'd also be able to forget everything that haunts me.
On a side note: I want a new camera.
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