Friday, November 09, 2007
I'm getting really annoyed at the way my life is playing me for a fool. It seems that everything that I take pride in shatters into dust, not just break into pieces. All that is precious to me is always taken away some way or other. I for sure didn't ask for this, so why is this happening?
But you know what? Take away everything I hold close to my heart. So be it. I'll just NOT treasure anything anymore so that it wouldn't matter to me.
Up till this point, I'm still not able to say that I surrender it all. Because I've never had the choice of giving up what's important. It's always snatched out of my grasp. I'm, just tired of it as usual. Why bother doing anything when I can't fight against what I can't see? Well Mad, perhaps its a sign. Maybe you just aren't meant to experience love and satisfaction the way you see others do. You could momentarily, but, as usual, it turns to brokenness when everything falls apart, yet again.
Life is awesome. I love living. I love how it shatters me everytime. Really. The ache is really nice. It's awfully endearing when the people you treasure the most want you around simply because you're useful. I jump for joy each time I experience the bitter taste of failure in what I take pride in. It's about time to stop resisting and just give up already.
Go Mad.
But you know what? Take away everything I hold close to my heart. So be it. I'll just NOT treasure anything anymore so that it wouldn't matter to me.
Up till this point, I'm still not able to say that I surrender it all. Because I've never had the choice of giving up what's important. It's always snatched out of my grasp. I'm, just tired of it as usual. Why bother doing anything when I can't fight against what I can't see? Well Mad, perhaps its a sign. Maybe you just aren't meant to experience love and satisfaction the way you see others do. You could momentarily, but, as usual, it turns to brokenness when everything falls apart, yet again.
Life is awesome. I love living. I love how it shatters me everytime. Really. The ache is really nice. It's awfully endearing when the people you treasure the most want you around simply because you're useful. I jump for joy each time I experience the bitter taste of failure in what I take pride in. It's about time to stop resisting and just give up already.
Go Mad.
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