Monday, October 01, 2007
Dear friend who is thinking a lot now:
Yes I know I said that I'll dedicate a whole blog post to you when you make me cry. I think I'll do this even though you haven't.
Talking to you was quite sad. Honestly as I heard what you said I began to feel quite sad. Yes I can tell you it's not healthy and all not to care about anything, but are you truly satisfied with the way things are? It's just via msn but it's as though I could feel what you are feeling. Please don't shut yourself away from human emotions. You can do all you want, not care about anything, but like I said, try to start caring for once. Not just for yourself but for other people. It is then that you will know what it means to love. Perhaps I was like you a long time ago, but I chose to step out and care, and I gained so much more. Yes a lot of frustration, a lot of tears came alongside, but I experienced what it means to have people beside me. I'd like for you to experience such joy too. I know you can handle the stepping out and breaking through. It's tough at first, but you're much much tougher.
And well, whatever you're going through now, bear with it. Because the nice thing about frustrating periods is that it will pass. The bad thing about this is that you're currently going through the worst of it. I agree that it's really unfair to you. Bear with it. Really. Giving up and walking out after this is really, as though you've wasted all the effort you've put in. See what directions you get then follow? I think that'll be nicer and less stressful as compared to weghing all your options and trying the chart every course of action you'll be taking. That's not being forward looking. It's being plain ks. Wait. Really. Don't think so much yet. See where God leads then follow. Honestly, you can think all you want now and think through every course of action, but ultimately, what happens to your well-made plans and such? Much as I'd like to tell you where you are going, I can't because I have no idea. If you're annoyed at the lack of direction, then close your eyes for now. Easy for me to say yes, hard for you I'm sure. But it's your life, and your future.
I speak honestly. And I know that I'm risking your friendship by saying such things. But like I said, you're worth my time. You're worth the effort. Please don't keep everything within yourself because you might just burst one day. You may have kept everything within you in the past, but there's always a first time for everything. Don't shut yourself away from your friends. Really. There are people who care, of which I'm sure of that. All you have to do is realise, and START caring too. It's cliched, yet true. I'm concerned for your well-being. You should be too. Try letting people see past that monkey exterior into the mind that thinks a little too much imo. Perhaps, you might find more friends similar to yourself, and yes, find true friends.
I do hope though, that you won't hate me for saying all these. I'd still like entertainment when I'm studying at home. :) Exchanging insults is NOT entertainment. It's entertainment when I do the insulting. :)
So... peace? Please?
Mad
Yes I know I said that I'll dedicate a whole blog post to you when you make me cry. I think I'll do this even though you haven't.
Talking to you was quite sad. Honestly as I heard what you said I began to feel quite sad. Yes I can tell you it's not healthy and all not to care about anything, but are you truly satisfied with the way things are? It's just via msn but it's as though I could feel what you are feeling. Please don't shut yourself away from human emotions. You can do all you want, not care about anything, but like I said, try to start caring for once. Not just for yourself but for other people. It is then that you will know what it means to love. Perhaps I was like you a long time ago, but I chose to step out and care, and I gained so much more. Yes a lot of frustration, a lot of tears came alongside, but I experienced what it means to have people beside me. I'd like for you to experience such joy too. I know you can handle the stepping out and breaking through. It's tough at first, but you're much much tougher.
And well, whatever you're going through now, bear with it. Because the nice thing about frustrating periods is that it will pass. The bad thing about this is that you're currently going through the worst of it. I agree that it's really unfair to you. Bear with it. Really. Giving up and walking out after this is really, as though you've wasted all the effort you've put in. See what directions you get then follow? I think that'll be nicer and less stressful as compared to weghing all your options and trying the chart every course of action you'll be taking. That's not being forward looking. It's being plain ks. Wait. Really. Don't think so much yet. See where God leads then follow. Honestly, you can think all you want now and think through every course of action, but ultimately, what happens to your well-made plans and such? Much as I'd like to tell you where you are going, I can't because I have no idea. If you're annoyed at the lack of direction, then close your eyes for now. Easy for me to say yes, hard for you I'm sure. But it's your life, and your future.
I speak honestly. And I know that I'm risking your friendship by saying such things. But like I said, you're worth my time. You're worth the effort. Please don't keep everything within yourself because you might just burst one day. You may have kept everything within you in the past, but there's always a first time for everything. Don't shut yourself away from your friends. Really. There are people who care, of which I'm sure of that. All you have to do is realise, and START caring too. It's cliched, yet true. I'm concerned for your well-being. You should be too. Try letting people see past that monkey exterior into the mind that thinks a little too much imo. Perhaps, you might find more friends similar to yourself, and yes, find true friends.
I do hope though, that you won't hate me for saying all these. I'd still like entertainment when I'm studying at home. :) Exchanging insults is NOT entertainment. It's entertainment when I do the insulting. :)
So... peace? Please?
Mad
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