Wednesday, August 29, 2007
It's like, coating rusty metal with more metal of the same type. On the outside it looks good and new. However on the inside, it's still rotting away and soon it'll eat into the new metal that has been placed over it too. And after a long enough period, everything just crumbles because the rusted metal is too brittle to withstand any more pressure on it. Perhaps that's how I feel. I do not admit what is clear before me because I wish to deceive myself that everything's going great for me! It's getting stale though. I've been in denial for a pretty long time. Perhaps it's time to clean up everything rather than coating the rotten core that is me.
School has started for 3 weeks. This week my tutorials and labs have started too. One word - Tired. Yes it's true that when I'm tired I think less and work more. But also I hate falling asleep during lessons and spacing out during tutorials. The competition is intense. I can't afford to fall back and have my grades slip. It's all too easy to fail, just a slip and I'm going to spend the rest of the time picking up the pieces. I won't allow that to happen though. I hate regrets so I will be alert and mug hard.
Overall, I'm just really tired. I thought I've settled my life out, but it seems that it's just a bluff. I'm a person of stubborn habits. My thinking does not change overnight. My life does not sort itself overnight too. Ah well. Back to work. I've got more than enough mugging to catch up on to eat into my own personal 'spacing out' time.
School has started for 3 weeks. This week my tutorials and labs have started too. One word - Tired. Yes it's true that when I'm tired I think less and work more. But also I hate falling asleep during lessons and spacing out during tutorials. The competition is intense. I can't afford to fall back and have my grades slip. It's all too easy to fail, just a slip and I'm going to spend the rest of the time picking up the pieces. I won't allow that to happen though. I hate regrets so I will be alert and mug hard.
Overall, I'm just really tired. I thought I've settled my life out, but it seems that it's just a bluff. I'm a person of stubborn habits. My thinking does not change overnight. My life does not sort itself overnight too. Ah well. Back to work. I've got more than enough mugging to catch up on to eat into my own personal 'spacing out' time.
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