Saturday, December 09, 2006
Last post before I go off for camp tomorrow. To be honest while I know it's going to be awesome fun, somehow I dread it also. I have experienced many times the tiredness and fatigue a group leader would go through by the 2nd day. The good part is that I'm no longer a group leader. I'm an adult leader. Which brings me to my next concern. I need to befriend the little people. I'm not confident of being able to encourage small talk and be an interesting person to talk to. Next, while I thoroughly enjoy the service, I don't want camp services to bring me to an emotional high. I want to be on a constant level in my spiritual walk. Which is why during camp I don't allow myself to get too carried away with the hype. Solid faith must build up before I allow myself to let lose.
Packing my bag was pretty simple. I have a bag I use for all my 5-day camps. This is a 4 day camp and somehow I find my bag superbly empty. I think I'm just not used to not bringing name tags, newspapers, and all the stuff for my camp group anymore. I am, however, bringing my camera, my batteries, charger. I told raine I'd carry her umbrella while she takes pics (during the wet games). Just trying to figure what did I miss out.
I think I'm more or less ready for the multiplication. Just pretty must wondering what it's going to be like being a leader in a different arena, taking on different responsibilities and working with different people. On the other hand, to be honest again, I'm leaving adam with regrets for the year. Maybe that is why I've been looking forward to the new year - so that I can leave behind everything. But I will have regrets for this year. Things I shouldn't have done, things I shouldn't have held so closely. It just serves as a painful reminder that I shouldn't have gotten myself into all these in the first place.
I hope they dont buy another alexis for pl. I think choechoe will cry. I think I will too!
Packing my bag was pretty simple. I have a bag I use for all my 5-day camps. This is a 4 day camp and somehow I find my bag superbly empty. I think I'm just not used to not bringing name tags, newspapers, and all the stuff for my camp group anymore. I am, however, bringing my camera, my batteries, charger. I told raine I'd carry her umbrella while she takes pics (during the wet games). Just trying to figure what did I miss out.
I think I'm more or less ready for the multiplication. Just pretty must wondering what it's going to be like being a leader in a different arena, taking on different responsibilities and working with different people. On the other hand, to be honest again, I'm leaving adam with regrets for the year. Maybe that is why I've been looking forward to the new year - so that I can leave behind everything. But I will have regrets for this year. Things I shouldn't have done, things I shouldn't have held so closely. It just serves as a painful reminder that I shouldn't have gotten myself into all these in the first place.
I hope they dont buy another alexis for pl. I think choechoe will cry. I think I will too!
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